Years ago back in 2017 my life had fallen apart. My marriage had reached a dead-end, my heart was broken. One night while my husband and son laid asleep in bed, I left the house drove around to talk with God.
I cried and screamed GOD WHY!!!! That was the only war-cry I had was why?
I would continue my day like normal and at night I would cry out to God why?
Why? Became my national anthem.
Why was my marriage falling apart? Why is this happening? You told me this was my spouse. Left heartbroken and confused I felt like Gods very own words had betrayed me. He told me himself the day my spouse would propose and he did just as God spoke. He also told me we would have some distractions that was set to cause doom to our marriage. Little did i know, I had no recollection of what those distractions would actually be.
I went to the gym working out then a vision of my spouse in a boxing ring flashed before my eyes. Something was fighting him so hard but nothing was there physically it wasn’t a person. (It was an invisible force) It was getting the best of him. I sat in the bleachers angrily, mad, confused and moved by what I saw to the top of my lungs was screaming FIGHT BACK!!! FIGHT BACK!!! FIGHT BACK!!! So my husband sat doing nothing, taking constant blows to his bloody and bruised body. Tears filled my eyes as I watched wondering what’s wrong why isn’t he fighting?
I left the bleachers and got in the ring. I appeared to be fighting air, little did I know what this meant at the time. (Read Ephesians 6:10-20) Distracted by the intensity of the vision, I ended my work out. Then God spoke, “you’re going to have to fight when your husband isn’t willing. Go home and talk to him.” I said ok God, but “we’re happy, we’re on cloud nine, you ordained this marriage so naw we’re good.”
Secondly, I went to target to just think for a second and grab a few items then God gave me a vision of a drawing with stick figures explaining the spiritual realm and the earthly realm. It all was foreign to me. I knew nothing about anything he was sharing with me. I look back he was showing me the fight for my marriage was a spiritual battle between two forces that can’t be seen with the naked eye.
I returned home never said a thing to my spouse about what I saw. Sometimes I wonder would things have been different had I spoke with him like God instructed.
The next month the battle began the happy marriage dissipated and the battle began.
It was me and God alone. I had support but it was the wrong support people loving on me the way the knew how of course, and they did their best. However it wasn’t the help I needed.
God said to me, you need to study your opponent when in battle. He told me to purchase a Bible. My unsaved self went to the Bible store (I only bring up me being unsaved to help you understand the state of mind I was in) I was there a whole shift. If you didn’t know you would’ve thought I worked there, that is how long I was there. God instructed me to find one I would understand and I also purchased a children’s Bible as well.
That Bible became my blueprint. I had lost my best friend, my husband, and I love him so much. My marriage was on life support and prayer was the only thing keeping Satan from pulling the plug. I would pray and see demons while I’m driving down the road. I would literally feel something covering my mouth trying to keep me from praying. I would pray and every time my throat would hurt. God said keep praying.
I sat down with God one afternoon he instructed me to grab a pen and paper he shared with me a poem to keep me going. God told me he would take care of me.
God instructed me in order to be effective in prayer I must first learn his word, and that the enemy came in like a thief and I was asleep to his devices.
Time went on I was losing weight excessively because God led me on a 30 day fast never fasted before only doing as instructed. I watched a lot of Myles Monroe videos on fasting at the time. Around that time God would speak to me night and day. Every single day. Giving me strategy teaching me prayer I had no idea there was a specific way to pray. (My fast was water only)
He taught to pray the answer, not the problem. Whatever I was feeling attach it to scripture. I was like God are there many more people like me? I began to go on YouTube. Google. Facebook. So many marriages were falling apart I felt better I wasn’t the only one but sadden that their were so many even thousands. Holy Spirit said you will help those going through the same. I thought God was losing His mind. So I told God ain’t no way whose going to listen to me and my marriage sucks right now. He said you will become the answer that others need.
I get so many questions about my page. Why am I so passionate because I have been many of you. I am you. There are thousands of broken marriages across the world. Many statistics on married vs divorce but there is a whole world of standers fighting standing in the gap for broken marriages and it’s undocumented no one knows their are no statistics for restored marriages
Im telling you that I know that I know God restores broken marriages. Your fight isn’t carnal it’s spiritual until you learn that you won’t survive until you lean into the word of God you can’t stand for holy matrimony without consulting the Creator.
Sometimes you will have to fight when your spouse isn’t willing. Yes I wrestled with God on that word. I was like nahhh sir it takes two for a marriage to work he said, “yes actually it takes two only you and me. Are you willing to give me your yes and I will give you mines. My promises are yes and Amen 🙏
Give God your yes and watch what he does with it. Don’t worry about what other people think. Other Opinions don’t matter and their for darn sure not factual!
It’s very potent to not waiver between two opinions what God said versus what your flesh says to do. Go with God. Your harvest will come just wait on it.
To be continued……